people can change

woah! it's been such a long time since i have posted.  sorry! i've been working just as hard as i can to earn enough money to help with my mission (only 39 more days.... GAH)

the whole point of my blog is to talk about what happiness is.  for me that is deeply rooted in family, friends, school, but especially my religion.  happiness is more than a feeling, it's a state of being.  it's a way of life.  i'll be honest i do not necessarily feel happy all the time (all though i wish i did) some days are really really hard and i just want to crawl up in my quilt and watch a movie and forget the whole think.  but everyday i have the chance to live happiness.  i can drink in each moment the good and the bad ones and watch as they make me who i am going to be.

recently a few of my good friends from high school have gone into the mtc, at the same time others have returned home from their missions.  in every single case i have said one thing after they have walked away "wow they have changed".   isn't that a wonderful thing! we are not a finished product and we do NOT have to stay the way we are now or were when we were juniors in high school or freshman in college.  we can become who we want to become.

i feel like i want to scream it from the mountain tops! WE CAN CHANGE!

when i was in high school i felt like i was pretty comfortable with who i was.  i definitely didn't struggle with self esteem issues as much as others did.  when i went to college i had the chance to redefine myself and decide who i wanted to become.  i was pretty happy with the high school version of kalli.  after all she had a boy friend, she liked her hair, she was active, she did fun things, her family had a nice house, she had tons of girl friends, and she really didn't see any bad in most people. i really didn't see the point in redefining myself, but life had a different idea for me.  now that i'm a junior in college, getting ready to go on a mission, and in a completely different state of mind than i have ever been before i can see how i have changed. it's a good change, a more mature change.

yesterday i saw my bff kylee in the mtc (i was visiting my ladies that i used to work with) it was only for about 5 minutes.  in that five minutes i could see how just 16 days had made kylee a more wise, mature, kind person.  i was so proud of her! i guess the point of my whole rant is don't allow some old impression of somebody to be your only opinion of them.  people are complex.  they are learning. and because of that they will change.  i know i have changed.  and i am still going to be changing and so is everybody else.

now that my friends is happiness

xoxoxo