hard times

i'm sure if you read my blog regularly you are picking up on the idea that i have a little bit of an obsession with being happy, and having this optimistic outlook on life.  today though i read a blog post on the shine project by a guest blogger (check it out here but seriously go read it like it's not just a suggestion) from hopes and dreams which is a blog that i also frequently read.  anyway this post talked about the need that sometimes we feel to be happy about everything in our lives, and i really think that we feel this way because we would never want to be accused of being ungrateful, or be that person that is always a downer.

for me i know that i hate feeling sad because a lot of the time the thing that i am feeling upset about is something that i can't control, that me being sad wouldn't help.  but something that jessi in her blog post made me think about is if we never felt sad how would we ever be able to appreciate the joy that we feel.

right now my family is going through a pretty hard time, and sometimes i worry that i make our problems sound unimportant, or trivial by the way that i react to them.  but the truth is i have no idea how things are going to turn out.  and i am scared to death, but i know that really everything has to turn out because there is no way this is the end.  sometimes i am hard on myself for even one second getting down, i feel like it is ungrateful towards everything that i have been given.  but i've realized that sometimes it is ok to be weak, and sad, and as long as it doesn't get out of control.

dealing with change is hard.  but it's doable.  what i've started telling myself lately is "yes kalli you are having a hard time and that makes you sad, but things are still pretty great and once this is over, once you've adjusted to this change, imagine how happy you will be, it will be annoying how happy you are because you are pretty happy now"

so those are just a few of my thoughts today... seriously go check out that blog post you wont regret it

have a great day and remember be happy!

xoxo