looking back on life

i've had a kind of blast from the past this last weekend.  I came home to bountiful this weekend because my bff syd was home on spring break and i had a fantastic homecoming to go to today.  life is a funny thing because you spend so much time working towards a future goal, a future career, a future family.  you are supposed to learn from your past mistakes, but at the same time if you live too much in the past or future you won't progress. 

i was thinking a lot about high school this weekend.  on saturday me and the girls went to dinner at joy luck (my personal favorite chinese food) 

it was so good to just eat good food, and talk, and spend time with each other.  I love getting together with these girls because it's not hard for me to be completely myself with them.  I love how since we have graduated we haven't stayed in as close of contact but we are still so close, it is SUCH a blessing. 

The homecoming today was perfect! it was michael's older brother and sister.  i loved hearing all of their mission stories and seeing how much they have changed!  but i noticed something about myself today, as i was sitting talking to his aunts i have changed in the 4 months since he has left.  i am a completely different person, and i am sure that he is too.  i can't let our past history hold me back.  and i can't base my life now on what i would like to happen in the future.  i need to concentrate on here and now.  i don't ever want a moment to pass by that i could make a difference in somebody's life. 

since i have moved down to college i have met some of the most amazing people! i have been given wonderful opportunities that have prepared me for the point that i am at now.  so what am i going to do with this new epiphany... i am going to make it through the next 3 weeks and nail all of my finals.  then i am going to work towards making this year's retreat for girls the best one yet. Then, then i am going to start my mission papers and hopefully be able to share with the world the gospel, the key to my own happiness.  the key to getting all of this.  taking it one day at a time.  i can do this!