Ok Wow (August 17 2014)

There is a scripture  that perfectly describes the way that I feel about this last week 

 36 And thus they were instruments in the hands of God in bringing many to   the knowledge of the truth, yea, to the knowledge of their Redeemer. 37 And how blessed are they! For they did publish peace; they did publish   good tidings of good; and they did declare unto the people that the Lord  

reigneth.

 

We have worked SO HARD this week and we have seen great success. Mostly, we have felt peace know that we left EVERYTHING on the table last week.  

Sister Vinck is an incredibly hard worker.  Seriously, I am so blessed to be able to serve with her.  The other day we were sitting at lunch chatting and the subject of how isolated we are out here came up.  She mentioned how really Elder Latu (our district leader) really wouldn't get mad at us if we did nothing all day, and all the other leaders well they are 7 hours away.   Not to mention we both are at the end of the middle of our missions so really the only person we are accountable to is the Lord for the work we do this transfer. That's been on my mind a lot.  I want to be able to account to the Lord EVERY day and tell him I gave 100%. 

Whenever I feel a little insecure about my service, or start feeling tempted to question the good that has been done I've decided to turn to the Lord and ask him to help me feel his approval.  The way that he usually helps me is by giving me the strength to do something that seems scary, or insurmountable.

There is a girl that lives next door to us who we are teaching. She's 16 living with her bf, she drinks, smokes, and has done drugs. Her life is so hard.  Her choices make me so sad.  Sometimes when I'm teaching her I feel like the long road that she has to go on makes it impossible for her to ever keep the commitments needed to be worthy of baptism.  It makes me feel like I shouldn't even try.  I know that's satan.  We taught her VERY simply the plan of salvation, at the end she offered the prayer.  It was so powerful as she told us about the warm and calm feeling that she's felt for the first time since she lived with her mum as a child and the sisters would come and visit her there.  I know that is what the Savior would have done. 

I was listening to a talk by sister holland this week that sister tanner gave me.  She talks about how insecure she felt to go and speak publicly.  She tells about a time that she even made Elder Holland  write her talk for her and she gave it,  and everybody fell asleep listening. She realized that it was because she was doing things for the world's praise.  Being  out here in the country I've realized it really isn't about pleasing the world (my leaders or other missionaries), it's about doing the Lord's work to bring glory to him.

In my book of mormon reading this week I read about Alma and Amulek in the city of ammoniahah.  After all the believers were killed Alma and Amulek were put in prison and for days they were left with no food and were beaten. Verse 28 of chapter 14 really stuck out to me "And Alma and Amulek came forth out of the prison and they were not hurt; for the Lord h ad granted unto them power according to their faith which was in Christ." Sometimes trials seem overwhelming and they are binding and halting at times. They are our prison.  The lord allows these things to happen because in the grand scheme of things it really won't hurt us, we will come forth out of  prison unharmed, and with greater faith in the Lord Jesus Christ.  

I know this to be true. I have felt it throughout my life, and especially on my mission.  Through Christ all things WILL be made right.  I know this, I would shave my head (because I think I would rather die than shave my head... knock on wood) before I would deny this (sorry hope that wasn't light minded).  

I love you all, but most of all I love my Savior.  He makes all things possible. 

Xoxo

Sister Wyatt

ps. there are really big spiders in australia....