waiting

so a year ago today was michael's birthday. we spent the day hiking up bryce's canyon, talking about his mission, and what it would be like to preach the gospel.  it's amazing how much has changed and how much is still the same.

i'm living with completely different people, and in some cases i'm not even still friends with the people that i was friends with last year.

last year my favorite music had to have been selena gomez this year you don't find anything much more upbeat than mumford and sons on my playlists. 

last year at this time i was convinced that i wanted to be a teacher, since then i have changed my major.... twice. 

my hair is almost brown now... last year it was pretty blond.... and long.... 

running every night last year was a necessity, this year i am lucky if i get enough time to eat. 

i had a car last year 

i still go home a lot 

i still talk to my mom every day on the phone

the pictures in my room, hanging on the walls are still the same

i still am watching supernatural almost religiously (3 years running now) 

my heart still aches for retreat for girls 

i still always get the same soup at Zupa's 

i am still mediocre at school 

i still sleep with earnest every night (my unicorn pillow pet) 

and i am still waiting 

i am still waiting for news about a mission 

i am still in transition

still the anticipation dominates my train of thought

still i am the same

i am still trying to learn 

except now it's about my transition

it's my choice that is changing my life it's not the lose of somebody else that will alter my life

......... waiting to become a missionary...... waiting for a mission call 

it's crazy to think about where i will be a year from now, i can't even imagine it. i don't even know where on the planet it'll be..... weird. 

michael and his companion elder gill

..... classic.